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I have officially lost my bestfriend… I texted her the other day and it was basically a waste of time because we got no where with the conversation… It sucks because she really is such an amazing friend and person. I want her to be happy and i know shes not but I tried and at least I can say that much. I tried… I hope prom tonight is as amazing for her as it will be for me…
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3 days ago
And I just want to scream at the top of my lungs and see who cares enough to ask what’s wrong… So much to deal with right now. I feel like the whole world is on my shoulders and I don’t know how to handle it. I’ve had much stress before but never as much as I do now. Today, my grandfather is having brain surgery because he has brain tumors that are cancer.. Also today my boyfriend gets his stitches out which is good and bad good because I don’t have to worry about him ripping one out and bad because he’s gonna be paranoid abou it tearing back open. Sunday is mothers day and I haven’t even gotten my mom a present. Tuesday is my senior expo and I don’t have my trifold display done. Friday next week I get an amazing tattoo for my grandmoms second husband who was generally the only real father figure in my life up until he passed away when I was ten. The following week well Tuesday the 22nd I have my kiddie korner festival, the North Penn car show which my boyfriend will be at and I go to pick up my prom dress. All in the same day. The 24th, a Thursday, I go to get my nails done with my bestfriend and I can’t wait til that. The 25th is finally senior prom. I would love to say I’m just so excited about it but right now I’m not because I have a feeling something is gonna go wrong. The day after prom me, my boyfriend, my bestfriend and her date for prom are all going to hershey park. And there is much more after that point but too much to name right now. All in all, my life is one fucked up overwhelming mess and I don’t even know how to deal with it all right now. I just want to scream and cry (although I’ve been doing that a lot) really loud just so one person says “whats wrong” and when I say “nothing” they say “no tell me” and then they just hold me… My boyfriend does that and i love him with all my heart for that but for once I wannna know someone else cares other than him…
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2 weeks ago
